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Fuck this world! Extremely egoistic mother, annoying to the bone brother, a fuckin whatever father! Not enough to die?! The only one I trust will leave me! Fuck this world, hell...!!!

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Scared of losing something important Now that I grew too comfortable, How the hell can I go out?

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I'm his worthless toy, one he dispose once tarnish

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Tired as hell
Lately my problem increases

Dad's big sister suddenly gets cancer, so dad's not home almost all the time
His status is: "Have to support my sister, though I'm hurting"
Yea right, you're not the only one... -_-
My relationship with mom sucks
You'll know how bad later on, she keep me fully informed of my failure
Bro's no better, trust me

Then I keep getting this terrible dizziness and stomachache
Probably because lately I've been lacking too much of food and rest
My science's marks aren't that nice, I know, and I'm trying damn hard for better ones
I can't stop drinking wines, somehow it helps with the crazy circumstances

I really need help...

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It hurts me, the way he make it as if he's the only one hurting, as if he's the only one suffering all the pain All that I want to ask never change Why can't I die?